A resurgance of the dead is to be expected what with meyer's new book coming out in 2 days. Since I'm just reading it now... I wanted to get my thoughts out on the book so far before I finish it.
Major Ranting, random grammatical errors and word vomit ahoy. don't be offended and attack me or anything, I'm just taking this as an opportunity to rant.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU, BELLA? WHY HAVE YOU CONTINUED TO DISAPPOINT ME EVER SINCE TWILIGHT WITH YOUR SIMPERING, DEPENDANT, NO PERSONALITY, MISOGYNISTIC TENDANCIES?????
Or at least of the empowered female kind, not exactly all women.
rant and SPOILERS beyond the cut! (seriously for those spoilers. don't read if you haven't read or don't want to, or if you love twiight with every fiber of your being)
First of all, bella, you have spent three books begging to be with edward, pining away and wishing to be a vampire. You have gone through your dream wedding, left poor Jacob in emotional tatters and had sex twice with a basically a piece of stone. You are a mere WEEK from turning into a vampire- and NOW you say you want to go to dartmouth for a semester? (By the way, those two times at sex were just confusing. I didn't even know they were leading up to it at all until a paragraph after they woke up. I thought they were ACTUALLY going out for a swim. Somehow, that whole take it easy thing out in the ocean just suddenly morphed into feather biting sex back inside the house)
NOW you want to stay human. Even though Edward has spent long periods of time telling you exactly that- that being a vampire would mean you woud give up university, any normal semblance of human life and all that. He also finally got over it and is just as excited as you about the whole turning business. AND NOW you want to put on the brakes and say no.
Jesus christ woman, make up your mind.
This is the point where i'm reading right now, but let me cut back to the beginning a bit, maybe even back to parts of Eclipse:
what is all your crap about soulmates and having two loves? I'm not saying it's not possible, but seriously, you're 18. wtf. And even so, you were made out to be so self sufficient and normal in the beginning of twilight. What happened? Why did you suddenly get so dependant on a guy that you completely fell apart? are you saying that the next time one of us meets a vampire (god forbid), we should just offer ourselves up on platters?
You are so self deprecating tand I actually agree with everything you say about yourself. YES, you did ruin everything Bella. I'm glad you realize it too, but it still gets annoying that you have no inner strength at all and rely on Edward to always compliment you and reassure you that you're not a completely usless oil slick. If you realize all your faults, I don't see why it's so hard to just keep yourself in check and try to change. It's all a matter of will, of which you obviously have none. Moreso than the fact that many times you just come across as plain useless, you recognize that you're lacking and don't do anything about it. Or you feel content in just admitting to your faults and declaring any follow-up or action not necessary.
To Jacob: Please peel yourself off of the pavement for two seconds and take a good long look at the person you supposedly love. who loves somebody else. but still loves you. but loves the other more. and ask yourself why. That cement pavement must be mighty uncomfortable, it wouldn't hurt to go in your own direction.
Also, that whole disbelief of honeymoon business at the wedding was just stupid. Just because they're vampires doesn't mean they're not equipped with all their dangly bits. You should have expected it.
I also confess, I may have skimmed through the parts where it is in your point of view. There's something about the characterization that bugs me, where you seem so complacent and generally accepting of everything, even though you spent copious amounts of time in previous books arguing against them. Every time I tried toreally start reading again, there was something else that made me cringe.
It might be just me, but so far, the book is just one big WTF moment for me. I like romance. I also like girl characters that maintain some semblance of their own indivuality. A mix of the two would be great, but Breaking Dawn is really just not doing it for me.
Ms. Meyer, Why must you submerge and drown all your readers in angst that is so meticulously engineered to appeal and "connect" with all girls despite all their differences? Please come up with more thoughtful, evoking plot devices that are not just characters deciding that they must change their opinons in order to make your 130 page book a 700 page book.